Move and Include

On the way to Gatwick Airport, en route to Bilbao, due to confusion about which stop the train was at... I rushed to get off and my bags and my right knee went in different directions - ouch!!
The short version is that, with an immense amount of help and support (cue wheelchairs, x-rays etc) I arrived in Amalurra where I was to teach a group of 50 teachers in training for a week, I was able to teach my sessions from a piano stool with a crutch close to hand. As the week went on my mobility slowly increased and with it my capacity for joy!

With the curriculum of Embodied Mind so foreground for me I was able to watch my fears of the future surface - and return to the present.
I could watch the replays in my mind of what happened, with the urge to find fault and blame - and return to the present.
I could work with letting the impact of what had happened move through me and move on, just like the event that was now in the past. A few days before I'd listened to Living Untethered with Michael Singer (recommended reading/listening for Phase 3 of the OF Training) and I am sure this helped my healing process. 

Being in a center of transformation like Amalurra helped me to keep choosing; asking for help, rest, surrender, vulnerability, pause, and adapting whilst the parts of me that were leaning towards feeling like a victim and sorry for myself could be there.. but not take over. 

Being wheeled through the airport in a wheelchair, through the Guggenheim Museum in Bilbao (thanks Sarah!), and having my usual movement range so limited was humbling, sometimes frustrating, and insightful. I was aware that as a usually able-bodied person, I had expectations as to how the world relates to me and how over time I could imagine those expectations lowering in the face of not being seen, prioritised, respected, and treated as an intelligent human being with different needs. 

It's been a deep teaching. After some days of rest and a thorough physio examination I am already way better, and, I am changed. 

You can read the rest of my June full moon newsletter here.